Hodge-Podge

Random Thoughts on My Mind Tonight...

- Sometimes I wonder why God gave me the life I have. He has given me a healthy home, good family and friends, a good job. I can't imagine growing up in a broken family, working all through college- probably missing the opportunity to go away to college- struggling to find a job, being estranged from my parents... Some days i get overwhelmed with God's goodness in my life. Today is one of them.

- It's so hard to let go. Completely surrender your dreams and desires. I find that just when I think I am doing ok and learning surrender, that is when I begin taking back my desires and acting out on what I think the path for my life should be... Oh how I wish I was a fast learner. I wish that I would keep the seed planted that God has given me. I keep digging it back up and holding it in my hand, not willing to completely trust God and let it grow. Trust that He is growing something wonderful, that I will reap a beautiful harvest... Instead I keep digging it up. Please pray that I will completely surrender, everyday.

- I'm excited to spend time at the beach. There is something peaceful about the waves. They are so strong and powerful, yet calming. I could sit in wonder and watch them everyday.

- I MIGHT be becoming a little less competitive when it comes to playing games. Today I played a Monopoly Cards game (which I HIGHLY recommend) with some friends... and lost every single game. (we played a lot) The strange thing is that I was totally ok with it. If you know me, you are probably surprised, or think that I am lying. But I'm not, promise! I guess the real trick will be if I get upset when I play canasta with my aunt this week... my aunt can play cut-throat... there might be blood and tears involved... which means I might not really be over my competitiveness. Hmm... we'll just have to see. :)

- This little boy is so cute. I love his little smile!

I hear he is talking even more than when I saw him a month ago. We made a bazillion videos while I was there. It was cool to see that he really understood that he was making a video. Every time we stopped, he would ask to do more. This one he is babbling a lot, but then he starts to become curious with the buttons. It's cute.

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